Dear readers,
I recently decided to erase my post called "sexxxxxx". When I wrote it, I felt confused and angry about some uncomfortable situations that occurred between Hunter and I. I decided to take the post down because I realized that it wasn't fair to Hunter to bring his personal life into my blog. I don't know a person on this planet that doesn't struggle with sex on some level. For me, I tend to view men and their sexuality as bad, dangerous and dishonest. I have had to work really hard to trust Hunter and enjoy what we have instead of viewing it as something that will one day be used against me. My relationship with him has taught me how to accept, respect and trust another person on an intimate level. His patience and kindness towards me has given me a sense of ease and enjoyment that I never felt with another man before and I'm lucky he's as understanding as he is. We are all children of God working to become better human beings and I owe it to myself and to him to respect his privacy and not shame him for his sexuality. I made it about me and it's not. The truth is, learning to live with someone, peacefully, and set healthy boundaries that still allow each person to be themselves is a difficult challenge and, after 2 years, him and I are both still learning how to do it with respect and love. I know I'm with a man that is nothing like my father, I know he will always be loyal and faithful to me and I hope I didn't give anybody the wrong impression of the kind of person he is. Thank you to all of you who keep coming back and reading what I write.
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